Where did half the year go???

How is it MID-JUNE?

What happened to all the other months between January and now?

I don’t think any year in my life has gone by as fast as this one. Sure, it was busy and quite a lot of things happened, but this is still the fastest that I ever remember reaching the mid-year point.

I’m not grumpy about it, I just literally woke up this morning and realized that it’s been June for a while now.

Ok wow, let’s… plan? The rest of the year? Make it a good one?

I need coffee.

Clear the Clutter

Hundreds of research papers and journals, about one thousand books, 50 email subscriptions, and 500 bookmarks. A collection of what was initially saved and protected as a future source of knowledge now looks like a mountain of files and links that may or may not ever get read. Noise.

What starts off as collecting information about the world, the latest news, releases, and discussions, soon turns into an almost manic process of saving anything that even remotely resembles an important piece of information. Lots of pinning, pocketing, bookmarking, downloading, all in a desperate attempt to stay up to date with the world.

Although it took me a while, I realized that a huge part of my procrastination was caused by opening my “collection”, only to then immediately feel overwhelmed by it all and stare blankly at the screen. This usually led to switching my attention to even more outside noise and occupying myself with tasks that would in no way help me progress towards any of the goals that I have set. So I chose a solution to this problem.

Select all. Delete. 

A blank desktop background with zero icons on it is my new source of happiness in the morning.

I still read and research of course, but I now do it selectively and focus on one topic at a time. My new style of work now goes something like this:

1. Discover a problem or lack of information.

2. Find no more than 3 reliable sources to provide answers or extra support.

3. Read them all immediatelly and make notes.

4. Continue with work.

No app can save you from unnecessary noise and distractions unless you eliminate them yourself. Besides, you’d be surprised how little you would actually be missing out on in the long run.


Life Interrupted

Two months passed by really quickly.

I’d like to say that I didn’t see it coming, but after the first two weeks of complete chaos it became quite apparent that nearly every aspect of life was about to go rolling down a very steep hill.

Before the chaos, I had planned short stories, two screenplays and one poem. However, instead allowing me the freedom to write, life decided to test me on every possible level, from finance, to health, to career, and as a cherry on top – to being hacked (learning how to program is now my new hobby). Murphy’s Law burst through the door and became very comfortable, even though I don’t remember asking for its company.

I understand the ups and downs of life. This certainly wasn’t the first time that uncertainty would be the usual forecast of the day; but it’s hard not to regret the time lost in it, and everything that could have been achieved had life just loosened up a little. It also took a much longer time than usual for angered thoughts to go back to normal and move on. But now it’s time to learn lessons, and move on.

Here’s to a new start, experience gained, and appreciating every day that doesn’t start or end with negativity.

Deep breath. Keep going.





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How Are You?

This short question may not seem like much upon first glance. It exists in every language of the world, is expressed through different letters, sounds, symbols and word formation – and yet, through whichever culture’s eyes you see it, it means the same thing – how are you?

What is often considered a simple conversation starter, is in fact a much deeper chance to enter another’s world, and see how they are doing. ‘How are you?’ shouldn’t just be thought of as a meaningless acknowledgement of someone else’s existence, for it holds behind it a number of other questions that have the power to offer support, emotional release, and perhaps even the solution to a problem.

How are you? – Are you in pain? Have you spoken to anyone today? Have you eaten yet? Are you warm? Is your family doing alright? Are you being bullied? Can I help?

If you look back prior to this moment in your life, how often do you, sincerely, get asked this question? And how often do you, sincerely, ask others?

In no way am I implying that you are responsible for constantly checking on others without taking care of yourself. However, on a large scale, many of our world’s global problems and cultural misunderstandings stem from this incredible lack of acknowledging, or taking any interest in, someone’s current physical and emotional state.

On a smaller scale, it creates emotional states where people begin to distance themselves from the world, simply because they no long feel like anyone cares how they are doing. Others come to them with a torrent of problems, complaints and sadness, and once they vent, they desert the scene of their flood, without ever asking the listener, “How are you?”

When people are left to feel deserted and uncared for, their internal demons start to surface, sit on their back, and begin weighing them down towards depression, anxiety, lack of self-worth, and in the worst case, a premature end.

You are not responsible for all the human beings of the world, and you are not expected to single-handedly change the mayhem that surrounds us. But if you can take an occasional break from your own life and dedicate just a short amount of it to listen to someone’s answer to ‘How are you?’ you may just be the pull back to reality that the person needed.

And if you feel bitter about this because no one is asking you this question either, so how unfair for you to sacrifice your time when others won’t… well, someone has to start, and your kindness will find its way back to you in the end.

How are you?

 speak out

Forgetting Dreams

I’m so frustrated with the number of dreams I forget when I wake up. Not so much the ones that were mental stories, but the ones that could have been great ideas but were forgotten the moment I woke up.

Ever get that feeling?

When I was a teenager, I remember speaking to a psychologist as part of our school program, which aimed to help students find the perfect career. At some point in our conversation, the psychologist asked me what I usually dream about. I answered, “I don’t really have any dreams.” Which, from my perspective, was true, because I’m not a fussy sleeper and I usually wake up with no memories of any dreams occurring.

The psychologist was a lovely lady, but she wasn’t happy with my answer. “That’s not true! Everyone dreams! Every time they fall asleep. Everyone dreams.”

So naturally I thought, “Well, where do all these dreams that she’s talking about go and why can’t I remember them?”

Last night I had the perfect dream for an idea. Idea for what? No idea. It disappeared as soon as I woke up. I keep trying to bring it back to my conscious but it’s not working. To be fair, it may not have been as impressive as I thought. Who knows. But it was certainly strong enough to wake me up in the middle of the night.

I wonder how many great ideas I’ve lost because of fleeing dreams.

*begins research*

“Adulthood is a Myth”

I feel that the only appropriate way to start the New Year is to remind ourselves that adulthood is, indeed, a myth.

Part open admission from an ‘adult’, part genuine admiration for Sarah Andersen’s work in “Adulthood is a Myth”; because I can’ t think of a better title for the period of life that so many young people yearn for and think will bring them clarity, a sense of purpose, or a new age where they will be in full control of themselves, their surroundings, and the temptations which they will face on a daily basis. This isn’t to say that adulthood is in no way different from childhood, or that it doesn’t have it’s perks. But it certainly doesn’t provide the psychological stability or the unlimited freedom that children expect it to, and that many adults pretend they have.

I spotted Sarah’s comics on Tumblr a long time ago and really enjoyed bumping into them every once in a while. However, I had no idea where these comics were coming from since, at the time, there weren’t as many people fighting for artists’ rights as there are now (that’s a whole new post to come in the future). So first and foremost, I am delighted to see that the original creator has received recognition for her work, which has hopefully contributed to a great career. Few things are fully, or at all, altered in adulthood.

Most people enter the adult world (which is here considered the age of 18) with few achievements – and that’s ok. Some enter the adult world with trophies and badges that suddenly don’t shine as bright in the world of adults where confusion, competition, and confused competition loom over everything. And even though it may not seem like it at first, that’s ok too.

If you are making resolutions for the New Year and trying to plan as much of it as possible, while this is certainly helpful, remember that life hasn’t changed that much from the playgrounds and school corridors of your youth. Not everyone will share their toys with you, even though in ‘adulthood’ they should understand that some people still can’t afford a game console. Not everyone will share their notebooks with you, even though the idea of grades should be long gone by now. Not everyone will compliment your new clothes, not everyone will have the decency to refrain from spreading false rumours, not everyone will want to sit next to you, talk to you, or invite you to their party. Your skin will still have days where it decides to make you resemble a dried plum, and your lunch money could still get stolen on the street.

If you are entering the New Year with a positive and optimistic attitude, great! But don’t forget that some of the most important things you’ve learned from life actually came from your childhood, not from some kind of metamorphosis that was supposed to bring you endless wisdom – but just ended up being another day.

Remember your childhood self. Play, daydream, laugh, eat candy, and be silly every once in a while. You will reach your goals in time.

Because even in an adult state, some of us still keep repeating the same mistakes from a long time ago:


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